Oh, and just because I want to put this somewhere, and I can't really in my own journal because my sister and I share so many friends. The thing is, even the people who love you most and are most supportive of you just fall through on this sort of thing, like your mom. Your mom loves you, but somehow she can't seem to see this part of you. And doesn't that just kill you?
Something I think about a lot...more than I should, is when I told my sister who is my best friend and she cried and told me she didn't want this for me. I know she meant it in the sense that it's hard to be gay, but...it still didn't feel good to hear that. She also is VERY uncomfortable with any mention of me liking girls even with her being into slash and pro gay rights. She has no problem with talk of hot guys, but me saying anything about a girl gets a big 'let's not go there.' and it's added a lot to my extreme discomfort with talking about finding ANYONE attractive. I don't want to bring this to her attention, because I don't want to hurt her feelings nor do I think she realizes on any level she has done this.
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Date: 2010-08-26 04:26 am (UTC)Something I think about a lot...more than I should, is when I told my sister who is my best friend and she cried and told me she didn't want this for me. I know she meant it in the sense that it's hard to be gay, but...it still didn't feel good to hear that. She also is VERY uncomfortable with any mention of me liking girls even with her being into slash and pro gay rights. She has no problem with talk of hot guys, but me saying anything about a girl gets a big 'let's not go there.' and it's added a lot to my extreme discomfort with talking about finding ANYONE attractive. I don't want to bring this to her attention, because I don't want to hurt her feelings nor do I think she realizes on any level she has done this.
boooo people. lol